Taking it up again.

After reading Annie’s blog, I’ve decided that maybe I’ll take up blogging again. I miss blogging and bitching about stuff on the Internet for others to read. I also doubt anyone checks this, so I should be all right.

I won’t change the title of the blog, though I suppose I need to redo the header to take out the “summer intern” thing.

So, an update on my life – I am not satisfied with anything at all.

There are good moments here and there, but as a general rule, happiness seems to elude me. It isn’t really one thing to blame as much as a whole culmination of my life at this point. I love work and the people there, but at the same time, I could be doing a lot better. Yeah yeah, it’s part of the learning process, but I just see all these little things that can be done better. So I’m working on it.

Work has also diminished what little social life I had. I’m working on that too. Much as I love the people I work with, I like seeing people I don’t work with too. You know, the people I got to know when I was in high school and the people I met last year. Them. They’re nice too.

And on the topic of people, what’s dating? I have no idea. I was reminded of what kissing was the other night, but then remembered that it’s much more enjoyable when I actually like the person on a deeper level than inebriation. Ahem.

Then there’s those things called classes. The bane of my existence, which is ridiculous, because one, I’m a student, and two, I actually like school. Not homework, of course, but learning. I like reading and writing and all that stuff. And now, I barely make it to my classes, and have come to the conclusion that I don’t really like my minor. I love music and singing, but choir and voice lessons and sightsinging are killing me because I can’t devote the proper time to them. And the one class I really, really, really want to take from the department – History of American Musical Theater – is on Monday nights. Go figure.

So there isn’t really a conclusion to all this. That was just a bunch of jumbled thoughts thrown together. I’ve decided that in order to really figure out why I’m so blah, I need to go somewhere, away from everyone I know, for like 24 hours, and just figure out what I want out of my life, and what I don’t want in it. I just really need to think. Things are moving at such a fast pace that I haven’t had time to do that since I don’t know when.

Maybe I’ll have some time after the Board of Regents next week to drive somewhere in Vegas (since I’ll actually have my car) and do this.

Until then, I’ll just keep on keeping on. Bah, how cliche is that?


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